I stopped self-harming largely because of an incredible friend.
I ate my first sandwich in a year to please a treatment team.
I stopped purging to avoid IP.
I stopped exercising because I wanted to stay in school.
I had my first meal out in months for my Mum on her birthday.
I increased to over 2000 calories to sit my exams.
I ate my first doughnut ever to see my Dad smile again.
I challenged a lot of fear foods to make my tumblr warriors proud - you were all, and continue to be, incredible sources of motivation for me!
I gained to a healthy weight so I could walk my wonderful Millie.
I chose health so I could go to Exeter.
I ate a cupcake for my Sister on her 22nd birthday
On my 19th birthday, I ate a cupcake for me.
By this point, doing something simply for me was a good enough reason. By this point, I had found a way to trust that I was good enough.
That is recovery. At first, you need to hold onto any small thing to motivate you. At first, this is often needed. I do believe that the determination to alleviate my family’s pain, make you guys proud and possibly the biggest thing - Exeter - drove my recovery.
However, over time you will come to realise - you don’t need to do it for anyone other than yourself.