smile-in-possibility:

I stopped self-harming largely because of an incredible friend

I ate my first sandwich in a year to please a treatment team.

I stopped purging to avoid IP.

I stopped exercising because I wanted to stay in school.

I had my first meal out in months for my Mum on her birthday.

I increased to over 2000 calories to sit my exams.

I ate my first doughnut ever to see my Dad smile again. 

I challenged a lot of fear foods to make my tumblr warriors proud - you were all, and continue to be, incredible sources of motivation for me! 

I gained to a healthy weight so I could walk my wonderful Millie.

I chose health so I could go to Exeter

I ate a cupcake for my Sister on her 22nd birthday

On my 19th birthday, I ate a cupcake for me.

By this point, doing something simply for me was a good enough reason. By this point, I had found a way to trust that I was good enough.

That is recovery. At first, you need to hold onto any small thing to motivate you. At first, this is often needed. I do believe that the determination to alleviate my family’s pain, make you guys proud and possibly the biggest thing - Exeter - drove my recovery.

However, over time you will come to realise - you don’t need to do it for anyone other than yourself.   

(via herchainsaregone)

showered-flowers:

have you ever just looked at someone and thought, my fucking god i love you. i love every goddamn ounce. i love your bones and your soul. but I’m a loser, who just doesn’t wanna lose you. i can lose fucking everything, but not you. oh god. not you. 

(via meanderingstitcher)

croutoncat:

i wanna die but maybe something cool will happen so ill stay alive for now

(via demetrria)

theuppitynegras:

just think about y’all millions and millions of little dark skinned black girls are going to go to the supermarket with their parents this month and when they’re waiting in line at the check out aisle they’re going to look up and see Lupita Nyong’o being hailed as the most beautiful woman in the world god is amazing

(via theamicoway)